we share a common habit my friend. i had a pretty thorough thought process last night as well. All i can say is don't look to far ahead; it just hurts more if you do. Enjoy the now, and hope for the best.
I can’t even fathom how much has happened in the past week.
All of the catching up with friends. The deep and serious talks with everyone about the present and the future. The conflict of living for the now versus later. The overwhelming overflow of various emotions. The irritability of all of this. The random epiphanies. A car accident. Surprising news.
“Please know that there are much better things in life than being lonely or liked or bitter or mean or self conscious. We are all full of shit. Go love someone just because, I know your heart may be badly bruised, or even the victim of numerous knifings but it will always heal even if you don’t want it to, it keeps going. There are the most fantastic, beautiful things and people out there, I promise. It’s up to you to find them.”