Today, Baby, Me, and his mama went to go buy him a PS3. Right after we bought it, along with some games, his mama wanted to go to the bank and deposit some money. So we stayed in the car and waited while she went. This was what went on.
Me: You know, the last time we were alone in the backseat of this car, we were making out.
Richard: HAHA I know.
Me: Now we’re alone in the backseat of this car, and you’re looking at your PS3 and games.
Richard: We can still make out.
Me: No it’s okay. I think the BIG PS3 box right in between us is a sign.
If he’s a good friend then sure! I don’t think my boyfriend would mind. And I REALLY wanna go to prom LOL. Not gonna lie though. I really wanna go with him but we’re both broke. And ironically, our birthdays just passed too HAHA.
I don’t get it. I really don’t get what it is that bothers me so much about the whole thing. The whole college party scene. What about it makes me so insecure? What makes me so not fond of the whole thing? What do I not like about it that bothers and irks me so much? Ugh, I don’t know. It’s not that trust isn’t there. Because believe me, it is. After all the changes that have gone on and for you to still stick with me through it all, I trust that you’re not going to leave anytime soon. Especially since you can have anyone you want, yet you still choose to be with me. It’s taken awhile, but I’ve accepted that this is how things are. I’ve even been pretty good this week with being positive and just letting things happen. I’m starting to just go with the flow and ignore and not think about what I feel about this situation. It’s not easy, but I’m pretty sure I can keep this up. Especially after everything that went on last week. Anything for you. Eventually, it won’t be me trying my hardest to avoid these negative thoughts and stay positive. It’ll just be me. But I still can’t help but wonder why is handling this whole thing so hard for me when you give me almost nothing to worry about?
So I thought I was going to have a productive study/homework night because the internet was gone in my neighborhood for the rest of the night. I started homework but ended up falling asleep at 9:30 because I was just dying. Very productive right?
I wake up again and it’s around 1:30 so I decided that I should check if the internet is working because I just can’t go the night without checking Tumblr and Facebook LOL. I go on Facebook and the first thing I find is so much controversy over this problem:
It’s 9 guys. I don’t get how you could 1 or any other answer. The problem isn’t 6/(2(2+1)). In that case, the answer would be 1, which is probably what most people did in the original equation. But if you do the order of operations, parenthesis is first, making (2+1) = 3, and then you continue on to the rest of the equation going left to right making 6/2 = 3. So 3*3 = 9. In PEMDAS, the M and D have the same priority right? It doesn’t matter which goes first, so you just solve the equation going left to right. At least this is what I learned in 2nd grade.
This just really bugged me. I really don’t get how you could get 1. LOL.
If you are reading this, then that means you are currently in my Message section on Tumblr. I know you read my personal messages while liking things on my dashboard. It's fine that you like posts. I actually find enjoyment in seeing the things you like. I know the temptation to read them is hard to resist when you see a new message for me but tsk tsk, you shouldn't be reading my messages. You're such a nosy person LOL.
My boyfriend looked through my message inbox because…
Happy Year and a Half Anniversary Baby! I know I write these often, but I think every anniversary is important and you should always be reminded on how I feel about you. And here I go!
You make me absolutely insane. You have the ability to bring out the worse in me, and make me the most paranoid and bipolar person that has ever walked this Earth. When we fight, I feel hopeless and I can’t function properly. Sometimes you piss me off and play with my emotions so much that I can’t help but scream and cry hysterically because I have no idea what else to do. There have even been times when I feel like you have made me reach my limit and I didn’t know if we could go on. You just drive me crazy.
But on the other hand, you also drive me absolutely crazy for you. Even after a year and a half, you still try to plan romantically spontaneous surprises. Even after a year and a half, you still give me the most soft and tender kisses that blow me away. You always care and protect me, always calling to make sure I get home safely. Even listening to my petty problems to see what you can do to make things better. You always let me win our play fights, just so I can brag to your face that, I won and you lost. You give me the greatest hugs and kisses on the forehead that make me feel so secure and safe when I’m with you. Our cuddle naps and kicking it on your couch watching Pokemon have shown me that we can do practically anything together and have it still be fun, because we’ve with each other. You have given up so much for me just so I can feel comfortable and secure with our relationship. And no one has done this much for me ever.
Even after a year and a half, I sometimes find myself wondering how I ended up with you. It still feels surreal to me that you’re mine, that you’re MY boyfriend. I’m not the most extraordinary girl out there, so as to why you picked me? I still wonder at times. But whether I actually am extraordinary or not doesn’t matter because YOU make me feel that way, like I’m the most important person in the world. I know I’m not the girl you fell in love with a year and a half ago. So as to why you stay now baffles me at times because most would’ve been long gone once they saw things getting hard and experienced my extreme moodiness and insecurity. But you still stayed. After every fight, you stayed. And for that, I’m truly thankful.
You are my weakness. I don’t think know I will never get enough of you. I’ve never felt this strongly about anyone ever. You have become such a big and permanent part of my life that without you, I wouldn’t be able to be my true self. It’s hard to believe that one person can impact me so much in this way, but you have.
Richard, I’ve been in love with you for a year and a half. Although we’re young and it seems naive, we can make it. We have a lifetime left to go, and a lot more anniversaries to celebrate together. I really can’t wait for our future.
“She used to be my unicorn. Unbelievable. Crazy special. The girl I thought could never exist. But as time went on, from one stage of the relationship to the next, the path that started off so innocent and fun has taken us to… this.”—Wong Fu Productions
[22:35] ahhahhalexis: Alexis Ashley Andom! U r my most favorite person in the whole world right now =D [22:35] ahhahhalexis: i like how it says right now hahahaa [22:36] ahhahhalexis: that means it can change. haha [22:36] flipmasterrg3: haha fine ill change it [22:36] flipmasterrg3: gosh sooo critical [22:37] ahhahhalexis: LOL its okay i like it [22:37] flipmasterrg3: haha too late lol [22:37] ahhahhalexis: omg ahaha [22:39] flipmasterrg3: wow look what jesse said [22:39] flipmasterrg3: [22:38] Jiiieeesssiiieee: u r my most favorite person right now? [22:38] Jiiieeesssiiieee: never say right now [22:38] Jiiieeesssiiieee: cuz means it could change [22:39] flipmasterrg3: lol [22:39] ahhahhalexis: SEE! [22:39] ahhahhalexis: thank you! [22:40] ahhahhalexis: seriously me and jesse. we get each other. LOL [22:40] flipmasterrg3: haha i didnt reread what i said… so if i caught it i wouldve changed it for sure [22:40] ahhahhalexis: well, you never know. it probably could change. [22:40] flipmasterrg3: nawwwwwwww [22:41] ahhahhalexis: i’m just saying. gotta think realistically sometimes. [22:41] flipmasterrg3: i am [22:43] ahhahhalexis: hah how do you know? [22:44] flipmasterrg3: like i said b4… my feelings wont change [22:45] flipmasterrg3: “i love just who u r… i aint gonna try to change ya… u r a shooting star„, thats y u r my favorite” - LMFAO
You’re lying down on your bed. With your laptop on your lap. And you’re just staring at their name on Facebook chat cause they’re online and you want to talk to them so bad. Or you just glance at your phone every couple of minutes, hoping that they’ll text you. Or even worse, you have a whole text written out already and all you have to do is click send. But you don’t. You don’t give in to any of your pathetic desires. Because you don’t want to bother them. You don’t want to cause anymore trouble and problems for them that you already have caused. You know that they just want to be left alone.
I wan’t to do something nice for the people i care about. This goes in no particular order.
Alexis: Best friend number one, the person I’ve known since the first day of kindergarten, the girl who ditched ASB with me in the seventh grade to go eat fries at the crap restaurant down the street. The girl who I first told ALL my secrets too. I know we don;t hang out as much, we don’t talk everyday, and even when we hang out we can sit in that awkward silence where no one says anything, but we look up at each other and we’re thinking the same though? W’re a lot alike, in different ways. But i know you are the one person who will never leave me, and i mean it when i say i cold NEVER hurt you. You’re my sister, and if by some miracle i get married, I wan;t you to be my maid of honor is my sister isn’t addicted to drugs.haha. <3
Because she is the only person I know will never leave me.
“I love you also means I love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that I love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else.”—Jonathan Safran Foer (via kari-shma)
until theres something else that causes us to argue. I hate it so much. I remember before, we were nothing but genuinely happy. Before, we were happy most of the time & got into one argument every once in a while. But now, it reversed. We’re arguing most of the time & we’re only happy every once in a while. I just don’t get it ..
Where no words are spoken to eachother, but we’re talking through our eyes. Just staring at eachother face to face. No, thats not creepy at all if it’s the love of your life that you’re looking at. It’s quiet in the room, but yet it’s like we’re having a full-on conversation. I look at every detail of your facial structures and you look at mines. When both our eyes simultaneously meet, I can’t help but to stare a little bit deeper into those brown eyes of yours. And when I do, I can clearly see my future. My future with you. & That’s how I know that I’ve fallen in love all over again.