As I lay here and just try process all that has happened tonight from going to Balboa Park with my new AXO sisters for Bid Day, to going to TKE cocktail, to taking care of my blacked out and vomitting roomie, to going to party with [N]Mo, to having heart to hearts with the people who inspire me every day to not only be a better dancer but better person as a whole, to more deep talks in the car on the way to Vallarta’s at 3 AM, to comforting the drunk as fuck, to taking care of my other best friend who threw up in the car and having more vomit on me, I can just say it’s been a long, exhausting, but very fun night, and I’m pretty happy that I’m home and can now shower LOL.
But despite how tired and exhausted I am, I can honestly say that I have never been as happy and content with the company that I surround myself with and the things I’m involved in, ever in my life.
“People are so vulnerable at night. They’re willing to spill out their souls to anyone willing to listen. They have desires to do things that never cross their mind when the sun is in the sky.”—(via bl-ossomed)
“He may love you. He probably does. He probably thinks about you all the time. But that isn’t what matters. What matters is what he’s doing about it, and what he’s doing about it is nothing. And if he’s doing nothing, you most certainly shouldn’t do anything. You need someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want you in their life.”—(via writepoemsaboutme)
“And you tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more. Tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake…You can’t make homes out of human beings. Someone should have told you that. And if he wants to leave, then let him leave. You are terrifying and strange and beautiful. Something not everyone knows how to love.”—Warsan Shire, For Women Who Are Difficult to Love (via quoted-books)
It might just be from the exhaustion, and the 5 hour dance practices because of hell week that has me saying crazy things, but I think for the first time in a very long time, I can honestly say that I am happy.
And I can wholeheartedly say that for the first time in a LONG time, I’m happy being alone and not having my happiness depend on someone else.