ah it’s my birthday and i should feel super excited and happy and i am don’t get me wrong but there’s just this part of me that’s discontent and uneasy that things aren’t gonna be the same cause i already feel it and maybe i’m just overthinking everything and i don’t know why i’m feeling this way and dammit i still needa finish my essay
on a side note, my cupcakes and balloons were on point. i love surprises.
“Sometimes I remind myself that I almost skipped the party, that I almost went to a different college, that the whim of a minute could have changed everything and everyone. Our lives, so settled, so specific, are built on happenstance.”—Anna Quindlen, Every Last One (via insanity-and-vanity)
As I lay here and just try process all that has happened tonight from going to Balboa Park with my new AXO sisters for Bid Day, to going to TKE cocktail, to taking care of my blacked out and vomitting roomie, to going to party with [N]Mo, to having heart to hearts with the people who inspire me every day to not only be a better dancer but better person as a whole, to more deep talks in the car on the way to Vallarta’s at 3 AM, to comforting the drunk as fuck, to taking care of my other best friend who threw up in the car and having more vomit on me, I can just say it’s been a long, exhausting, but very fun night, and I’m pretty happy that I’m home and can now shower LOL.
But despite how tired and exhausted I am, I can honestly say that I have never been as happy and content with the company that I surround myself with and the things I’m involved in, ever in my life.
“People are so vulnerable at night. They’re willing to spill out their souls to anyone willing to listen. They have desires to do things that never cross their mind when the sun is in the sky.”—(via bl-ossomed)